I loved the scene in Over the Hedge where Hammy drinks the energy drink, I could absolutely relate to that.
The feeling that your mind is working so fast that others seems to almost stand still in comparison.
I have been slowing down my thinking on purpose since my preteen years because the other kids would lose interest in what I was telling them. As an adult I can now speed it up again with Red Bull!
In this scene in Over the Hedge Hammy personifies Me!
I always enjoyed being able to navigate vertical thinking through complex thoughts with lightning speed without skipping a beat. My own galaxy of thoughts! After receiving my Autism diagnosis and being informed of my co-morbid ADHD, I carefully examined my past to pinpoint where I could link behavior to Autism or ADHD.
I can see my teenage years playing out in front of me. Social awkwardness, inability to sit still, need mental stimulation, focus on one thing for exceptionally long periods of time, getting bored when topics don’t interest me, daydreaming, novelty seeking etc.
As I mentioned, I had to slow down my thinking in order to ‘fit in’ and as my Psychiatrist pointed out: ‘Stop doing that, you can now just be yourself.’ This led to me rekindling an old ally of mine, my sharp mind!
I am still in the process of figuring out how many Red Bull cans one can safely consume in a day. It does seem to me that caffeine is a friend of mine 🙂
Don’t worry, I know that I need to take it easy and also take into account that I take Contramyl XR everyday but I do enjoy my new found yet familiar processing power. I see I am not the only one experiencing a focused yet calm effect with caffeine – see this article right here.
Disclaimer: I am not suggesting everyone with Autism and / or ADHD should drink coffee or Red Bull, I am just sharing my personal experience.
I must admit that I think it was difficult for people around me who were on the receiving end of my behavior, and I could see them wanting to spend less and less time with me. I was entertaining but also exhausting. I get that now…
The best thing for me now is to act in such a manner that I am not rejected by society, just accepted.
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